Day 12, "Search Me, Oh God!"
"If you are like us, we can both recall times in our lives when we have done or said "good things" not because of the call of Christ, but to be liked or well thought of."
This is exactly the kind of situation I found myself in as junior in high-school at a CIY event at Anderson University. I grew up a Christian raised by Christians who were raised by Christians that grew up in Christian homes (and so on and so forth). It was that night I realized that I wasn't sure if I had been living a Christian life because it was what I really believed or because it was expected of me. Most of my young life I was trying to live up to expectations, and most of the time I did so. But now I had to make a decision. Was this MY faith of was it my parents' faith. Reflecting on that question, as any serious teenager would, I realized that it really was my own faith and from that point on I was going to have to live that way. I couldn't just keep up a good appearance of being a Christian, I had to actually be one.
Some of us are masters of keeping up a good appearance. But we can be selfish even in our generosity. While those around us may not be able to search our hearts and motives, the Lord above sees through it all and will judge us not only for what is said and done but for the conditions of our hearts as well.
Mike @ DCC